..kayskays, i know i m the one who cause both of you break..seriously, last time i really don't know you and him are steading lurh, you nvr even tell me before..i know i said one sentence before.."if you really stead with him, then we jue jiao", but before i said that??? you tell me? nvr rites? i totally confused now..and i say i will change is not because you and him will patch back, is because of you and myself..or you think, if i really change already but he nvr come back also no use??? it's really make my heart break..after so many things, i know how important he mean to you, and this few weeks i can know that how you felt for last few months, i really know lerh..cos this few weeks you treat me like a stranger??? and you told me now what you are doing is what he's doing now rites??? i know why you want to do til like that, you want to change, you said last time you very dumb, you want to go back already..even i want to go back, also can't le??? i know i can't so selfish like last time..this month i been thinking the same questions, i want to tell you what m i thinking and how i feel, but you can juz ignore me, i know you "tired" already, and i know start from that time after you and him break, you starting to regret why last time you choose to help me and not him??? seriously did you blame me??? after reading your blog, those you that you wrote meke feel so...guilty..i know even now i tell you how i feel, you also can't be bother already??? and you said i always said you are the 1st one in my heart, but everythings that i do is him 1st??? you in my heart really is 1st, but juz when the day i put the 3 heart beside him in my blog, you juz ignore me in school and nvr care..i'm blaming you, juz that i feel so...i think you will understand how i feel??? and yesterdae ppl told me that you talk behind my back..when i heard it, i was...., cos everytime how i thought no matter some pplskeep saying my bad words or how much more you are blaming me, you also won't talk behind my back..i always believe that you won't..but the facts prove that i'm wrong all the way??? but i also don't know why i can't blame you, did i really treat you as my best friend in my heart??? becos if is other ppls, i sure will blame the person and scold him/her..i know now i do what or say what also no use already, juz like you said "what's done is done"..and yesterdae you asked me to cherish whatever things that i have now and doing something must follow my heart, or not will regret in the future juz like you??? becos of me, you regret what you are doing last time or that time..juz becos of this, gt one thing i cant follow my heart..i really feel very sorryxbillion about what i have done in the past, i know now apologise also no use already..facts is facts, no one can change it..but i always believe this world gt mircale, i know now you won't belive this kind of thing already. and think that is bull-shit..you don't belive me already nvm, but, you must believe in yourself no matter what happen..i really sorry for what i do last time, really~now i gt a ques, did you and her took my art work don't know when..and gt ppls went to tell don't know which teacher say i ask ppl help me do??? i hope the person is not you and her, cos i trust you all..when he told me that you two are lying..i know he nvr lying, but i also nvr believe that is you all lying, cos i know you two won't..and when i tell you and her that i asked you two to talk the art work back from him..now i don't believe, but did you all really said that??? this few days like really gt many things happen, a lot of things make me confused now, really...but if you all say the paper are not taken by you all, i will believe..pls tell me the truth..and seriously, i not blaming you all, kays???
